The other day I noticed that a doctor I used to work for had a want ad in the paper for a medical assistant.
Now, the job was definitely flawed. The two clerical workers up front were grumpy ladies, over 60, who hate their jobs but are just putting in their time until retirement. Long hours, doctor a little nutty. But I loved the patients, I loved the medical end of it and felt very confident about what I was doing clinically. And the pay was great.
Sooo....since employers are not exactly beating down the doors to hire me, I contacted the doctor and told her I saw the ad and suggested myself for the position. Today she took me to lunch and we discussed it. We decided that I would come back and that I'd start this Saturday.
There was an office meeting today and she suggested I attend. It was scheduled for late afternoon/early evening, so I went home after lunch, planning on being at the office at 4:30. At 4:10 the doctor texted me, telling me NOT to come, that the two clerical workers were rebelling against the idea of me returning to the office and "didn't want to see my face".
I'm still scheduled to start work on Saturday, but I'm having many mixed feelings.
We desperately need the money. We need it very, very badly. If I could manage to stay there for at least a year it would really help out my resume. And the money is desperately needed. Oh, and did I mention how very badly we need the money?
But on the other hand, I dread the idea of once again being in an abusive work environment.
Doesn't everyone deserve more than that? All I want is to be able to go to work and be treated like a professional. I don't want to be screamed at because some coworker is having a bad day. I don't want to be hit (slugged in the arm and shoulder) all day because someone is "a touchy-feely kind of person and just can't help it".
The hours are kinda rough; alternating back and forth between a 5 day and 6 day week every other week. 8-10 hours a day.
But the pay is high, and did I mention that we really need the money?
Not sure exactly what to do. I've got a text into the doctor to find out if she thinks the situation with the other women will ever be rectified. I suppose whether I go back to work there will depend upon her answer.
And on top of it all, I have an overwhelming feeling of anxiety. I wish I could stay home and be a housewife. I don't do stress very well anymore. I think I need to live a gentler existence to feel my healthiest possible.
Too many decisions to make. I'm not sure I want to/should jump back into that job again. Except for the darn money!
To be continued...